I am always on the hunt for "new" music to listen to because I just plain get sick of driving/ running/ doing chores to the same old tunes! Ever since I installed itunes and figured out how to organize all of the music on my hard drive my music listening "life" has changed. These days, I'll purposely let it play through every random genre on shuffle just so I can re-discover tunes I didn't even know I had- and the other day- it happened. With a worship song!
I am terrible at the names of Christian Artists & song titles because to me, worship is worship and either I LOVE that song or I don't prefer it. I don't follow the lead singers' love lives or appreciate the riffs (is that even what it's called?) because it feels funny to me to do that with songs about God. Instead- the song itself helps me offer God something I don't have any normal talent or words for- Praise.
So when this strange artist named Robin Mark started singing a weird titled worship song called "Days of Elijah" I let it play because - Elijah? Who the heck would sing about HIM and why?
The next thing I know I am full-on grooving in my room to such lyrics as "the year of jubilee" and "prepare ye the way of the Lord" and joining in on the repeating chanting chorus of "there is none like Jehovah!"
It rocked my world. Seriously.
As crazy as a mental picture that you might have of me dancing around in my room blasting a worship song right now, maybe you better times that by 10. I was really into it.
It's really a cool song about the truth of who God is. How he revealed his power to the "crazy prophets" way back when and THINGS HAPPENED. Amazing miraculous things that revealed the power of God. The tempo can really get you fired up and I thought about how fun it would be to be THAT excited and riled up every time we Worship God at church- to just go nuts and bounce around like a complete unabashed FOOL.
Sometimes I really am tempted to on Sundays but I am ashamed to admit that I would feel like a freak if I did more than stand and sway a little or raise my hands.
Truth? How I long to not even care about that and BE "more undignified". My excuse to myself is always "I'm too shy" or "maybe IF I could sing- then I could pull it off . . . "
But I don't have the guts. I know it. Crap.
A few years ago- at my old church I met a lady sitting behind me who stopped our conversation mid-sentence and asked if she could pray for me. I said "um, okay" and afterwards she said "let go and just worship." Before that, I hated standing all through worship and was uncomfortable raising my hands. Now- it feels funny to sit through songs - even the slow ones- so I stand even when I am the only one- and yeah, sometimes, it still feels kind of funny. But I wonder if I am too busy being "aware" of my current surroundings that I've forgotten how to let go and "just worship". Like they did in the Days of Elijah . . .
Apparently it was a really popular song in the mid-90's but I don't think my church ever caught the fever (although it sounded vaguely familiar) so, I am happy to bring it back- even if it's just me bouncing around in my room for now.
But if you ever do catch me bouncing around in the aisles at Shoreline- maybe you should give it a sec before you call the loony bin- and let go and just worship.
Man, how amazing would that be?
